There is something bothering me. I care about people around me, close to me. Sometimes people don't give a shit when I cared but when I ignore, they just hate me. yeah, PEOPLE!!

S is getting engage on saturday. I felt good and happy about it but I still have doubts on the soon-to-be-groom. I have this subconscious instinct that always badgering my mind when something is not right. BUT,   I always had doubt on people so sometimes this instinct doesn't work. I pray  the best for her. No matter how pain or hurt when we were friends but I still love her and I don't want to see her in pain anymore.

I hate people having fun meddling in my life. Did I ever ask for your money to live my life? If not, just fuck off ok?? And don't put the blame on me when things go wrong. Sometimes u have to ask yourself!

Eid is around the corner. This time of month surely bring happiness to the most of us. I only applied 3days leave for eid. Monday, 12th dah start kerja. I have to save my AL for holiday with Toby, Tiger and N on 19th to 21st.

Nothing much going on lately. The house is good. Now I want to focus on study matters. I have 2 choices now:

1) Continue on MSc in Malaysia --> fee is on me and doing it part time and coursework

or

2) Continue on PhD in abroad --> I have to come up with proposal, full time and the fee is paid by Gov.

Ahh its all depends on N now. She got offered to continue PhD in France. And if she wants it, she will leave on Sept. I don't know. We just wait and just go with the flow.

Huwaaaa nnt N pg Paris lagi but without me :(